Thursday, 24 April 2008

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  Dear Mim...

  Dear Mim,

   You would have been 20 today. It seems really weird, because I still think of you as 18 and beautiful and even the rest of us girls, I still think of as 18. We were having the time of our lives. Enjoying our new freedom and living life to the fullest, at least for a short time after grad. I don’t know how it is up there, are you 18 or 19 or 20 or 21? Do you still think of us? What do you do up there? I still miss you a lot. It feels weird, writing you a letter, especially since it feels like I don’t really know you. Were you ever in my life? Looking back now, you were just a sweet vapor in my life, that just whispered in and whispered out. We’ve all made a lot of changes. We don’t really talk about you much, and it makes me feel bad. It’s like we’ve forgotten you, but whenever we get together, we feel that hole. Every time Meghan or Mel or Rose plans something with us all, they go through the list, and there’s always one more that we can’t think of, that we’ve forgotten, and then we each silently remember, it’s you. We’ve been taking good care of Rachel. She hasn’t taken your place, but she’s gotten her own special place in our hearts. We love her like a friend and like a sister. It’s not easy for her or your mom, but we all try hard to do our best to fill in. Naomi’s done a good job. And her and Dave are finally getting married! J On May 24. Rachel’s gonna be the maid of honor. We’re all excited. We’ve changed a lot. We’ve gotten more serious, more appreciative of what we have. None of us have forgotten you, but sometimes you feel like a story. I forget too much of what we did, what we talked about, how you sounded, how we had fun everywhere. The adventures we had each Sunday afternoon and evening. It’s hard. We all notice the hole, but we do our best to fill it or just get by. A lot has changed. Too much. There have been a lot of good changes though. Some bad ones, but God’s in control. I don’t know if it’s weird to write you a letter, but I thought it might help. I haven’t forgotten your birthday. It’s ingrained in my memory. Every April I think, there’s Dad’s birthday, Uncle Gerry’s birthday, Connor’s birthday, and Miriam’s birthday. Oh, wait…sigh… It’s been close to 2 years, and the pain is slightly less. I didn’t believe it would get less, but it has. Although it’s mostly because the memories are decreasing and that hurts in it’s own way. Well, maybe I’ll write more later. I know you probably won’t ever see this, you don’t need to, you’re having a wonderful celebration up there, and I’m happy for you, I just miss you so much. Anyways, don’t worry, we’ll take care of your mom and Rachy and if you could read this, I’d wish you a happy birthday, just to make me feel better. Oh, and say hi to Stephen and Silas and the others for us. We miss them too.

   

  Love Your Friend,

  Ruth

   

  P.S. Remember all those letters we wrote in high school? :P I found some a while ago. They made me laugh. We were so silly. J

  P.P.S. Remember this pic? I remember showing it to you for your 18th.

  

   

  

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